Bella Italia

We’re home again after four days in a summery Italy. I’ve spent an absolute fortune on the kids but it was well worth every penny. We haven’t been on a proper holiday for years and God knows if we’ll ever be able to go anywhere together again.

We went to restaurants, explored the Amalfi area, bought presents, socialised with the family (there were 14 of us!) and celebrated my mum’s birthday. Lovely as it was to spend quality time with the kids, I missed J so much I felt like crying most of the time. I wanted him to be there by my side. See what I saw. Taste things with me. Add a few more memories to our shared history. But when this trip was planned back in November, I would never in my wildest dreams have guessed that him being by my side on a family holiday in Italy was anything but my fantasy.

I battled the tears as I saw him walk away from the airport when we had to board the plane. When we landed in Naples I soon realised that my phone wouldn’t let me send any texts. I was so upset! When he phoned me to check why I didn’t reply to his texts I was over the moon and walked around with a silly grin on my face for hours. We spoke a couple of times a day and each time all I could think was how badly I wanted him to be there with me.

At the moment I feel like I never want to go away without him again. Ever! Jeez… Is Ms Independent developing some nasty clingy qualities?? Is this what love does to people? I’m gonna have to brood on that one whilst I get busy cooking some spicy ribs and a veggie stew for when he comes home from work…